Worse yet, I had to update my misheberach list

That was even worse than putting a strike-through over my mother's name in my phone book--for my Mi-Sheh-berach (prayers for the sick) list, I really had to delete. It was bad enough when I had to delete my grandparents' names from the list. Deleting my own mother's name was horrible in its finality. I can no longer pray for her during "R'faeinu" (the "Heal us" petition in the weekday Amidah prayer). She's as well now as she's ever going to get. I can only be grateful than she died without pain.